Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I've been feeling down in the dumps lately - and i guess today's foul weather doesn't help. i don't know. i think i've just been real burnt out. maybe i'm at that point in life you know - the late 20's becoming an adult and it sucks stage. or something deep inside has run afoul and i'm trying to find my wings again.
the other day, a friend got on my case for not acting like myself - then i stopped and was like - uh, what does that even mean? i'm not sure what myself is. after being single for like a max of 5 months of my life since 15, i can't give you a clear definition of what myself is.
for me, i don't step back and think a lot. things just keep happening. life keeps happening. it's not like life is passing me by. but i think that i live at such a speed that i don't know what is going on. sometimes i think i need one of those vacations where i just don't do anything, just sit there and reflect.
i hafta go watch that movie LAST KISS, -- zach braff's last movie JERSEY STATE kinda struck a note with me and i think this one will too. i don't know why, but i feel confused a lot about what life will turn up. i actually had the chance to interview him but i didn't - well, one because i had a LOT of stories and couldn't handle it and two, because i have the biggest crush on him because he's saying what's on my mind and i was worried that if i met him i would fall desperately in love with him. and that wouldn't be professional! jk.
hopefully this raincloud on my life will life soon!
the other day, a friend got on my case for not acting like myself - then i stopped and was like - uh, what does that even mean? i'm not sure what myself is. after being single for like a max of 5 months of my life since 15, i can't give you a clear definition of what myself is.
for me, i don't step back and think a lot. things just keep happening. life keeps happening. it's not like life is passing me by. but i think that i live at such a speed that i don't know what is going on. sometimes i think i need one of those vacations where i just don't do anything, just sit there and reflect.
i hafta go watch that movie LAST KISS, -- zach braff's last movie JERSEY STATE kinda struck a note with me and i think this one will too. i don't know why, but i feel confused a lot about what life will turn up. i actually had the chance to interview him but i didn't - well, one because i had a LOT of stories and couldn't handle it and two, because i have the biggest crush on him because he's saying what's on my mind and i was worried that if i met him i would fall desperately in love with him. and that wouldn't be professional! jk.
hopefully this raincloud on my life will life soon!
