Tigz

i remember when i was little, i lived across from the most popular kid in kindergarten - i would watch him play in front of his house, while i hung onto the telephone pole in front of my house - and never would have the guts to ask him.

funny how i just remembered that.

i guess i've always been shy, though i've gotten better at hiding it :op

this whole column thing is kinda cool, but kinda freakin me out. i guess i've never felt comfortable in letting it all hang loose. i'm very self conscious that way, like it takes a lot to get me to let my guard down...this is why i sucked at jazz, i cud never do a solo even tho i knew the technique - i was just too worried about messing up, but that's what i ended up doing :Op but we'll see i guess

some weird thots:
- went to this awesome blues show with anne-marie - some guys hollered out at me, saying that i had a nice outfit :) and gestured me to come along
- one time, i was crossing the parking lot, and this guy almost hit me with his car, then he did this joey thing - like - how u doin' - i was like, dude, you almost killed me - ok, i thot it, i didn't say it.
- more people i know are multiplying - freakin' me out. i'm spending more time in target's baby section than at forever 21!!!

ok, some deeper thots...
- sunday school graduation was cool, i havent been as regular there as a teacher lately, its weird to be needed...i guess i never saw myself that way
- lot more time on my hands lately b/c lots of people are gone: grad school, married, multiplying, etc....figuring out what to do...
- i usu. like making myself uber busy, so i dont have to think, but now that i have more time, i'm thinking more...ick.
- friend asked me - so - how are you with God lately? funny how that's the first time i've ever been asked...made me ponder...i'd hate to say i'm lukewarm - but sometimes i really feel like it. like i'm too busy living out what i want instead of bothering to listen to what He wants....i guess more time to think is good...

yay of the day! - futurama is coming back!!!
- breakdancing transformer way beats out kikkoman
boo - writing this possible BIG story is difficult :(

feels lately like people are either going to grad school, moving away, getting married, or having babies...

while i am still doing my same thang - feel a lil stagnant - like i shud be moving on the next phase of life...but i'm not :0p and not really wanting to either.

as for phases of life, i guess i'm living out this phase as much as i can :0) you see, there's only so long that you can go to britney spears concerts and shop at forever 21

i'm in the process of getting an sort of online column thing where i'll advise peops on what cool stuff there is to go to - it'll be called - Going Out with Marian - tho i hope people don't get the wrong idea - first of all, it's not possible for me to be everywhere at once (that way i can't watch cartoons!) and other thing, well, i just hope they don't get the wrong idea

so my coolio friend steph took pix of me for the column, but i had this awful zit in the middle of my forehead that she had to photoshop out - and then b/c it's online, we goofed off with a LOT of hats - now, i find out it might be printed in the paper - severely embarrassed - at least the zit is photoshopped out i guess :op

more baby showers to go...huff puff - watched 13 going on 30 tonite, i definitely DO NOT want to be 30...maybe 21 again :)

hey, and then i can shop at forever 21 forever!

been going to a LOT of weddings and baby showers - big blow to my bank account, and it all makes me glad that i'm not there yet :)

so here's some life lessons i had over the few days

- don't wear track pants when going horseback riding - was slipping off the horse in tahoe (he was this tan pony called montana :)
- don't stay in "trendy hotels" manned by people your own age - they can be shady and sell weird lotions
- only tip if they deserve it, went to get my nails done (this is after i told my friend that i don't get them done, only cuz mona was doing it too) and they were like: PAY NOW! btw, the machine is broken, so go to another store then PAY NOW!
- cards make people smile
- food = love :)
- invader zim should have never been canceled, but nickolodeon was crazy for letting it on - it's so weird, it's wonderful
- they shud trade in a all carb diet to a all BOBA diet!
- suits don't make me look older, in fact, they do little for my age

and some work stuff
- goin to have a work blog soon :) and a "Going Out With Marian" segment online about cool stuff to do online - tho i hope people don't think i'll be out everywhere i mention - i'll be pooped!
- interviewed groban - he says he's both really really serious and really really stupid and he listens to usher :) and plays video games
- got futurama from the movie reviewer :) they shuda never canceled that
- dat phan was an awesome interview - we started going off on this asian am trip - wuda made angry azn man proud
- dad asked why i wasn't covering the olympics, well, with only the ability to cover swimming, i don't know how useful i wud be - but trying ot figure out a way to be at beijing 2008 :) hehehe

today i decided to be a professional bum :op

jk, i worked from home today and finished up writing. i can write better in my rec room filled with music and video games - provides inspiration :OP

ok, so i tried out these weird quizzes (they're located on the left column bottom) and guess what...

my fated job is (drumroll)

A HEAVY WEIGHT BOXER!!!

and my dad's is.....a god - well, that's messed up.

just got back from dc.

learned a LOT. learned how to lead, and the real value of diversity in newsrooms - through a story about Native Americans, learned how to value one another and learned how to serve.

also met friends i haven't seen in a long time, and learned how to reprioritize them back into my life.

also learned that maybe work isn't everything :op

it's been an educational year full of more downs than ups. :OP

it's been a crazy week - with no sleep, well, hardly no sleep

dc is humid and i can't let my hair down, b/c it immediately frizzes up - yes, chinese girls can have fros.

been trying my hands out on editing and leading :) it really really freaks me out - this whole leadership thing, but i kinda like it. i like helping the creative process i guess. the only thing is i hate disciplining. i don't like being mean.

i guess one of my mantras is mean people suck.

hehehe

:op