Tigz

i've just read the most beautiful book - "the five people you meet in heaven"

i want to write just like that - stories that tug at your heart and soul. Here are some quotes from the book:

- No life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.

- Sacrifice is part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret.

- All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.

- Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface adn must nourish form below, ending to its roots, keeping itself alive.

Things that make me happy:

1. price checkers machines - there is always some joy in running the tag on the laser, getting it to beep and telling u it's half off = everywhere shud have price checkers - even safeway, heck, even the hair salon

2. stuffed animals - luv in fluff - can't get enuf

3. boba - i thot i had enuf of the addiction, but i can't stop!

4. velvet pants - it's fun to shimmy

5. when my kids in my class are honest to me - and actually get what i'm teaching them.

things that are yucky

1. mean people - there was this lady who stepped on my jacket in macys (yes, i was there in the mad rush of valley fair after Christmas) she didnt' say sorry, she just said - OH - well, she worked at Macy's, so then i started putting clothes randomly at random places - that will show her

2. dirty socks - there is something about socks - they never get clean after wearing them once - i mean, they are never white again

3. eternal colds - but i am happy to say, i am better now! tho my bro now is sick :(

4. expectations and assumptions and face - azn culture will drive one crazy

5. gaining weight back from cold - did u know boba has calories!

i got this happening jacket and black fedora - and wore it to work this morning - my bro called me a goth pimp :(

anywayz, i'm done with Christmas shopping.

and off for 2 weeks!!! yay :)

today i went to an sr independent home to do some reporting - i always wonder in amazement at how open people are to reporters - they talk about such things as dating as a kid, to their past loves and current hates. i don't think i cud open up so easily.

then went to a party that was a part of my home church - i ran into a former sunday school teacher - he was like my fav and best one - cuz of his life stories - he used to run with the wrong crowd - then became a cop - and jailed his old buddies - imagine standing across from an old friend - with jail bars in between, just b/c you chose the wrong path - this teacher is now a pastor - i really look up to him, b/c he's not the preachy type - he lives it.

he asked me to talk to his high schoolers about youth and media - on a sunday morning - huge challenge, hope i'm up to it :op

haven't posted in a while and a lot since happened. let's see what i remember

1. went to chicago
- saw the LARGEST trex ever excavated, but somehow in my imagination i had made it gargantuan, and was disappointed when i saw the real thing
- one of the museum volunteers walked up to me and asked me about the trex, showed me her canines, then i started asking all this stuff, cuz he wondered if i had any questions --- then, he got to the point of why he came up to me - he tugged at my arm and said - you're purty.
- ate pizza that tasted like ravioli
- went to the art institute and saw orignal impressionist art :) yay! my fav
- was so cold that i felt it in my bones
- ate white castle
- shopped at one of my fav stores - H&M :) and got a cool hat
- got an EINSTEIN stuffed animal - named him Einie - who knew he would be so cute? but bro stuffed him into a ball - i think he lost a lot of IQ points in the process

2. still sick
- chicago progressed cold from throat to nose
- and now i have a lil of both
- cold made me lose weight, which is good and bad - pants are looser, but this is sure a scary way to get a flat tummy
- i call it my eternal yucky horrible cold

3. went into christmas card factory mode
- made so many
- and i'm still not done!!!

4. saw CATS
- i always thot it was weird that the older cat went into a spaceship and sailed to the moon, like what are they on? but then my mom explained that the cat died
- making the musical sad - when i thot they were just high

5. got a hug from exec editor :)
- and publisher told me - so we'll be seeing how you grow

6. played flute at church
- still got nervous and played two notes wrong during solo
- i review stars all day, and now, i can feel their pain

ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

still sick - blech.

so being sick, i stayed home - decided not to pass cold via cookies - and so instead of making cookies, i made lots of earrings.

then, i watched this silly channel on cable called "love stories" - they were depressing - people falling out of love and then finding another person outside marriage to sleep with.

my question is: HOW CAN ONE FALL OUT OF LOVE?

does your heart just not function anymore? do u take one look and slight the other person as unattractive one day? and what if one falls out, and the other is still in: don't u just break the other's heart?

some say this happens, b/c u were never truly in love - that there are stages. or others say, there is always somebody better out there for u.

i want to say storybook romances come true in live - but falling out isn't in storybooks. maybe we have to read the tiny print - that the prince turns into a toad again :op

my other deep thot of the day:

IF ONE SINS, AND ALREADY BELIEVES IN GOD, THEN WHAT?

i mean, if you already believe, then are you clear for life? what if you do a horrible horrible sin - like murder. are you clear? and what if you turn ur back on God. I think He doesn't turn your back on you - but wudn't it make sense for Him to? And if He does, how would you turn him back.

hmmmm...deep thots for a stuffy head

my work email lives!!! ahahaha, it's like a phoenix. or worse yet. the undead....dracula.

suffering a nose stuffiness and a slight coughiness - i hate it when only one side is stuffed...then u blow and blow, and it gets all red and irritated - and then, your stupid nose decides to switch...and then its red all over! tho i'm trying to trick my body - i'm thinking if i dress nice (usually when one is sick, they dress all frumpy and warm) , then i can trick my body to think it's ok!!! (not really working)

anyways, i'm taking it easy these days. had a career planning workshop. wanted it to tell me what to be when i grow up - the leader didn't! it should be one stop shopping - like disneyland for happiness...jk

yesterday i went to this ultra rich event - where people were embarrassed things they were wearing cost 100 each - they rather it be like 800 each - decked out in ostrich, mink, and such. i thot, this is one sector, i'll never belong too - but hey, they thot me and steph were models!!! yay!

and today i led fellowhship study with maggie - i don't think we really knew what we were doing - not having met anytime before - and i think people cud tell - so i brot them candy canes - to make them forget that we werent' so good :op

thinking of making desserts for people for christmas - like for potlucks - but i'm afraid cuz i'm sick, i'll make like cold cookies that will spread my sickness - is that bad? maybe it won't spread?

my work email has died. it is plugged up with viagra ads :( i have to give it CPR tomorrow.

i saw this idea on somebody else's site, but i wrote up rules of my own:

rules in approaching me, calling me, or emailing me.

on email:
- NO MORE VIAGRA ADS! i'm female!!!
- no attachments of any kind. they crash my computer - it cannot handle anything complicated - just like me, heehee
- no forwards - i know you care, but please say it personally
- no more secret crush emails - they confuse me and i end up signing up for something stupid - like MORE VIAGRA ADS!!!
- finally, if you are pitching a story - please include the basics, when, where, what, and keep your BS to a minimum - not every band can be the best in the universe
- finally, please be nice, i have a folder named EVIL and i may just stick you in it!!!

in calling me:
- just a tip, i don't accept collect calls from jail - yes, i have gotten them, and no, i will not accept the charge
- um, please don't hit on me - that's creepy
- please be nice, i'm taking time out to talk to you - meanies suck
- again, if pitching a story, not every event is the best in the universe, so i will not believe u if u tell me so

in approaching me:
- i'm short, yes, i know, no more rubbing it in
- and yes, i'm of age - u don't need to check my ID
- and YES, i'm older than my brother - u say anything otherwise, and he'll remind me forever
- and again, please don't hit on me, that's creepy!

whew, that's it - that should all be included in a disclaimer stapled onto my forehead or something.

on another note, i think i'm getting sick again - my darn WBC's are not working :(